I guess, today's one of the worst dinner i've ever had w you?
it's like sitting in front of you, holding back those tears while looking at your lovely face.
not like how i could let the tears flow down like how i do now while typing this.
told you that my eye is being irritating and tears would keep coming out the whole day,
but no, its only when i'm facing you.
remembering everything, makes my heart real pain.

i don't know if you'll ever come across my blog at all,
since its the only place where i can really say out my feelings,
with no one knowing (i guess)
sometimes i'd think, if leaving would make everything better?
you don't know how i feel, nor do i know how you feel.

i love it when you're sweet to me,
i love it when you're nice/good to me,
i love it when you always make me laugh,
i love it when you're trying very hard to surprise me,
i love it when you smile.

but why? what happened afterall?
and soon, you're entering NS, what am i supposed to do?
it ain't easy, i know. but, although i promised i'll wait,
how long can i really bear w it? :(