i'm back to this familiar place again,
because i can no longer find any place for me to rant.
twitter's so wide, Facebook's too .. me-no-like.
so end up, i remembered i still have this place that could make me feel so right :)

i'm sorry i neglected this space for so long,
and i regretted cos i can't look back to what happened in between.
but RP's giving me RJ to do everyday, which makes me feel tired to blog :/
and for now, it'll be just like my old friend again.

shall start w saying, i miss the past and everything else except the future and now.
what to do? people would say, i'm too stressed and stuff.
but the way i'm feeling now, its like as if its tough to even breathe.
time can't stop, money's everything.

19th supposed to be the deadline for school fees, and yet it can't be paid ..
i know, family condition ain't as good alr, but still this heavy-hearted feeling..
to know that someone else paid my sch fees for me,
one that i can't accept even if i didn't say it out.
it made me felt really so useless and pathetic, yet i can do nothing but cry.
wanna push you away, yet my heart aches like never before.
how i wish to tell you that, hey i wanna go home myself today, all alone without you.
because all i wanna do is to cry, yet i can't do that in front of you.
totally sucky, but yet, all i needed actually was you to come and comfort me,
telling me that everything will be alright.
so contradicting, i needed you yet i wanna push you away..

you've been wonderful, sometimes i'd even think that,
hey i don't suit you. you're beyond perfect, so right.
yet i would only do things that upset you, and most of the time,
being a burden to you. you complained, time after time,
end up you still forgive me. i can't help but feel so useless.

shall stop here i guess! its late alr.
crying to sleep tonight uh?
and, its the 13month when the clock strikes 12am.
what to do? when i don't feel any good w you at all ...